I’m playing this game.. once again.. I thought it was over. This may sound funny, but, really I didn’t mean to hurt anyone. I have been thinking-  This may actually end up exactly the same catasrophe I have just gone through. I’m so unemotianal when it comes to this matter.. Can you blame me on that? It is me and I just dont feel anything.. I have deserted everything the person would say or do.. Perhaps it’s convincing and alluring yet, it bothers me sometimes.. In my insight it is all meaningless.. I am glad and grateful, I’ve met someone who’s concerned.. I’m an evil.. I knew I could have disavowed in the first place; but instead I’ve chosen to play a trick on. Just thinking for my own good, not knowing I’m aching someone else’s feelings..This absurdity has to end, I’m afraid so..