Here are the facts, things are not going very well and have become more complicated than ever.
Even they ask me about my condition and I usually express I’m in a good state as though I have never suffered from sorrow.. It has never been easy to pretend.. In fact, I am not good at it, that I always get caught up.. Although, I admit I have sometimes lied- I mean who wouldn’t?? Some people have their own reasons why they have to lie,and apparently I, too, have my own.. However, It was never meant to be done- I know misleading is radically unforgiven.. I swear, I sincerely regret all the things I’ve done.. My conscience has been ravaging me since then and I might have to convey this for my entire life.. It’s sickening,this is not good, and I can’t even utter a simple “sorry..” I’m a terrible person.. cover me from masses… I wish they could still forgive me…
If I had a chance to decide on- I would rather be alone than to spread nor create another lie that I know it’s just going to be hard to evade when it comes to an end…
Too late… It has already been done..

I would say 2008 has been a terrible year. Too many issues, problems and a number of unforgetable incidents had happened; and that all I want is to erase the memories forever.. Like what just turned out these past few days..
The much-awaited day was wasted,.. He was right. I regret that I disbelieved what he said, I should have trusted him. Ample expectations most likely end up with agony, frustration, emotionally distressed, you will just feel miserable; precisely what I felt that time. I was really irritated and upset. I couldn’t control myself that I cried, furtively. I was exhausted, my body was in total pain, I did not even get enough sleep; and yet that’s what I earned afterwards. I knew it was quite unacceptable; however, for it was the christmas season- indignations should have omitted and let all go. I’ll try to make up for it this forthcoming new year. This time  I am going to start over..(again^_~) be more organized not just on my stuffs but as how I live.. More like a resolution eh?! Well then sure. I’ll try to change perhaps some of my bad habits..:D  In addition, I ought not anticipate and be rational for myself.

happy new year , warm wishes to all~